Impressions

Lies

Sat, 19 Jul 2008 16:54:51 GMT

I have a question that I hope for an honest answer, even if I don't know you personally.

What is your impression of me? Seriously.

Rip me a new one, tell me, even if you think I'm a complete waste of space on the tennis court, on the TV, on the Internet, shoot.

Gone

Sun, 13 Jul 2008 14:26:20 GMT

Kikumaru-kun, I just realised you thought I was playing doubles with Dan-kun. The burnt stick I was referring to was Akazawa, rest assured.

Yukimura, I'm not feeling well. I'm gonna AWOL. And you can give me laps when I get back. ~~I don't care.~~

Personal
He's gone. Just like that. Fuck. He's done it again. Hisa... is it so hard for you to just stay? First Taki, now you, am I supposed to run after you?

-sigh-

Fri, 04 Jul 2008 13:15:56 GMT

We're not perfect right? We make mistakes. And mistakes should be forgiven and forgotten right? RIGHT? D: Excuse me while I shoot myself.

Private
I hate making a fool out of myself. Ugh. Now where is Kajitoto and Kajitoto II? I need the speed to get rid of all that noise in my head. Now.

[ooc - he's referring to the boo boo with tennis captain in his previous entry, I don't think he can forget it so easily ;D]

NOWAI

Wed, 25 Jun 2008 12:06:37 GMT

Doubles.

DOUBLES.

Doubles Two. Or was it One?

DOUBLES.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You got to be kidding me.

~~WHO THE HELL IS BAKAZAWA?~~

Regardless, do I look like a DOUBLES player to you?

Seriously?

No don't answer me. Let me go find my voodoo dolls. Now if you would excuse me, I need to make new ones.

DOUBLES??????????????????What is the meaning of DOUBLES?

Change over

Sun, 25 May 2008 08:40:52 GMT

I used to enjoy change. Now I'm not too sure.

Inui-kun, apparently we're room mates now. Yorushiku.

Changing into a personality used to be so easy for me. But things get complicated. And Life goes on. The world doesn't stop spinning. But what about me? Blogging makes me think too much. This clean slate for me to scribble seems larger than life and I wonder how I can fill it up with myself. Perhaps I'm just tired. But I'm not supposed to be tired. I'm not supposed to be all maudlin but I can't help it. I want to go back. Now.

Kajitoto? Thank god for you and Kajitoto II. I know I shouldn't take the motorbike out for a spin when I'm half dead but the exhilaration... win.

Bleah

Sat, 17 May 2008 06:28:11 GMT

I think I'm getting fat. This is bad. I need to stop lazing around in bed just because I don't have to work. Ok technically I still have to work but blogging doesn't require much muscle movement. Which explains why I'm getting finger cramps. I need to do something, elsewhere.

Preferably far away where I won't be recognised or something. I can't believe I'm saying this but I miss the dorms and Koko and err... nvm 8D

Kajitoto says he misses y'all. Sorry haven't been around. Was recharging and still am, don't forget to send me your love ne? Everyone ganbatte

OMG!

Thu, 08 May 2008 12:12:26 GMT

I SURVIVED. OH.MY.GOD. If I must write another paper, I think I will just keel over and die. Really. Not very glamorous.

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY EVERYBADAY HOW IS IT GOING?

[ooc - bcos Chrissie is too busy with school work, I ripped this off from cimness which I based my Wakato on (=, this is his essay to Simon]

Wakato isn't exactly a perfectionist, like so many of his teammates are; he just likes for other people to tell him that he is perfect.

Wakato has always been good at being charming. He can almost always get his way with his parents and he has his grandmother wrapped completely around his finger. Around the time he turned thirteen, something his mother said made him realise he could sharpen that talent into a skill, too, just like Hanamura-sensei was teaching him to do with his tennis. His grades got even better, then.

Wakato is used to hearing that he is good at everything. He was never the best at anything. He is the best, though, at his tennis imitations.

When he first took up tennis it was an idle way to pass the time he always had too much of as a child - not even a hobby. Later his pastime became his secret stress relief. A part of him was regretful when Hanamura-sensei started to work with him, and he had to share it with other people.

He trains hard in tennis, until his body feels like nothing but one long ache, and then he pushes the tired muscles for days until the soreness wears off. He likes that ache almost as much as he likes knowing that he is stronger when it goes away again. He enjoys tennis more than anything else - even though it hurts sometimes, even though he works hard at it and he doesn't like people to know that.

The first person Wakato ever thought was really pretty was a girl with short hair whose name he doesn't remember. The first time he thought someone was so beautiful that it made him flush was the first time Kajimoto demonstrated his perfected serve for the whole club.

His family are very impressed by his wins. Both his parents always tell him so on the phone, and within the next week they come home early, and take him out for dinner to celebrate. They brag about him as often as about his brother now at dinner parties. Neither of them has ever come to a match, but that's just as well. It would be embarrassing.

No one knows how hard Wakato really works at tennis except for Hanamura-sensei and Kajimoto. It was Hanamura-sensei who saw potential in his little hobby of imitation, and she has worked hard, too, to make him into one of her masterpieces. She found out by accident, but he didn't mind, and it has turned out to be a good thing. He never meant for Kajimoto to find out.

Wakato knows Kajimoto would never tell anyone. He has never said a word to Wakato about it - not even on the days when he comes back after his student council meetings and stays to practise with Wakato instead of just locking the gym.

Wakato has always resented not being the best at any one thing, especially when it seems like his brother was the best at everything. Even his pretender style, which he is definitely the best at, happened by accident. But he doesn't mind any of the specific things that he is not the best at - that Kajimoto and Shinjyou are better at tennis, or that his grade is the second highest in math, or that most of the school agrees Izu has the best hair. Kajimoto is the first thing Wakato has ever really wanted to be the best at.

Memories

Tue, 29 Apr 2008 09:59:19 GMT

Was looking through my old stuff and found this. Aren't we just adorable (= Of course I sing better than you Yoyo, stop trying to deny me ne?

I swear this has to be one of my favorite pictures of Hisa. I don't even remember when I took the picture. But now, it seems as if the light from his eyes have diminished. He doesn't seem to need me or my affections. So I guess, we're meant to be friends. Somehow it doesn't seem to change anything at all. It's ok Kajitoto I know I'm an airhead, a bastard and a attention whore, selfish and ruthless, I deserved it ne?

Ore-sama FTW!

Mon, 21 Apr 2008 17:31:49 GMT

I kissed him. And he let me kiss him back. Twice or was it thrice. Hisa tells me he has no idea why he let it happen. So what am I supposed to do, keep waiting? I don't know anymore. What he said made me question whether it was love or obsession. I think I need to see a shrink.

So the expert on blogs died and guess who is now the new ambassador of blogosphere? No I jest, nobody died ne?

Of course, it's yours truly. Which means more sponsors (= and more work D= The price I pay, I guess it's a decent trade off of some sort.

Once I clear this week of hell, I'll be free as a bird! But I have no clue what the hell I'm going to do for the summer, any suggestions?

Oh by the way, one of my err fans asked about seeing a shrink for err her love problems, you know to sort out her head, anyone knows anyone?

Yukimura, I'm sorry if I was a bad host at the premiere. If they hit on you, mistaking that you were my girlfriend or anything, just ignore them.

Kouhei, I'm getting fat. Thanks D= Need to work it all out. No chubby fukubuchou okay?

I will be what you need. A friend. I won't leave you in the darkness. And sooner than later, I will return you to your former glories. Trust me?

The premiere was a blast all thanks to you lovely fans. I'm sorry I didn't get to finish the autographing and photo session but send it in and I'll remedy it in a jiffy. I hope you all had as much fun as I did and I'll be missing y'all like you miss me. Take care sweethearts, remember to watch the screens for your favorite ouji-sama ne? You don't want me too lonely do you? Ganbarimasu minna! Keep me in your prayers ne? Love ya~

Does anyone have a cure for eye bags?

Fri, 18 Apr 2008 10:47:45 GMT

Darlings I'm sure you don't need reminding but just in case, tomorrow's the premiere! Don't be late or there won't be any of your 'Lonely Ouji-sama' products left ne? I know how sorry you'll be for missing out on my latest products, so (= the early bird catches the worm ne?

I'm healthier now, had enough fruits and veggies to kill a cow D= Barely had enough sleep because I've been pulling all-nighters to complete that damn essay for Simon. Bastard he is. Though when he said I would be the perfect Sharpay in High School Musical I must have pulled a cheek muscle. I LOVE SHARPAY. But it looks like there will be a mutiny against HSM but who cares, I'll end up the lead anyway.

Thank god I don't have exams, just hell loads of papers to do. Have two presentations next week and though I love to argue but not like this.

Suitemates, I left a large stash of home made dark chocolates in the common area, from me to you all loves (= Yes I'm generous like that ne?

Taki, I hope you get lost in France. You better bring back a present for me or I'm not forgiving you. Not ever.

Kajimoto, I tried to stop by over the weekend but you were either ignoring me or not around. I've err... have a box of light bulbs for you.

Koko? I just want to let you know if you need someone to rant to or whatever, that I've got two pretty hot ears ne?

Kajitoto's angry at me. I can see him berating me. It's not my fault love that I understand Taki's desperation. I would be the same if I were him. I wish I could help him, he looked so lost and unhappy. The poem touched me in ways I didn't expect. He's a sweetheart deep inside. Hisa didn't know what he missed out on when they chose to break up. I wish... never mind, it's none of my business, I should just fuck off, as usual.

It came as a surprise when Hisa asked me if I meant it when I said I wanted to help bring the old Kajimoto back, my heart string tugged so badly that I just wanted to run to him and make everything alright. I will move on, I have to, he doesn't love me. I'll always have Kajitoto (=

Whatever~

Sat, 12 Apr 2008 14:20:10 GMT

What does it say if you down a dozen 70% shots and you're still sober? Osaka's clubs suck. They have Whitney Houston on their dance tracks, the hell? At least Michael Jackson is dance-able. Anyhow I think their drinks are diluted, unless of course my tolerance shot up. It's possible though.

I can't believe the nerve of my producer, she actually stood me up! Skinny bitch. Oh well, 'tis life, nerds rule the world D=

I need some junk food. Pronto. Screw the diet. Comfort food is always good. Not that I need comfort, don't be mistaken.

I miss him. To know he is close enough to touch and yet I cannot be anywhere near is pure agony. I wish he would just cut himself some slack. I want to help but I don't know how. It's like every time I try to say something nice, it comes out worse than before. I haven't heard from him since the day after he broke up with Taki. The last time I saw him was what? 5 seconds? Went to his dorm, passed him the light bulb without a word and disappeared. I didn't want to leave but back then I knew I should stay away. Don't need to get heart broken so early in my Uni days. Fuck.

His ex is... crazy. I gave him a chance, hell I gave myself a chance to be real and then he slams me against the wall like he doesn't care. What is with people using me as a platform to bounce back? My feelings don't matter? I'm just trying not to be the bastard. I know what he's going through and I know he needs understanding. So what happens when I give him some? I end up being the guy who just happens to be there. Don't even have a damn name. Then he reminds me how great it is to be the Pretender. I should be used to this but come on... I don't hate him, I see bits of my former self in him and I think the way he loved Hisa was so much better than my selfish one. Is it so hard to be nice?

Dear ones, you guys won't be seeing me for awhile. I've got the cold. Forgot to close my window and have been walking around town in the wee early mornings in too little clothes. Plus you know how much I love to ride my motorbike, yes he's named Kajitoto the second. Which explains the cold D= But no worries, I'll be fine by the end of next week for my premiere ne? Expect my dazzling presence (= I love you all ne?

Bitch please.

Wed, 09 Apr 2008 04:18:40 GMT

Simon thinks I've got room for improvement, that sneaky old homo! I'm perfect, what is he talking about? I must send him a copy of my drama. Well at least he compared me to THE model Kenn, so I guess that evens everything out. Beautiful things need to be adored. Red heads rule (((=

Oh well, so I've got an assignment, 10 facts about myself and another 10 about someone I love. Character analysis he says, for drama class. WTH?

Just fucking perfect. Thanks, Simon. Really, thanks. I SOOOO needed this. Ugh! On top of my other papers, this is just the best. Right Kajitoto?

KoKo, thanks for dinner, we still need to talk about whatshisname... And whatsupwithYoYo? Don't worry about me. Cat fights are my thing (=

YoYo, I left you a bottle of Listerine and some of home made dark chocolate hanging at your door. Manners and language are for the civilized. Drive your fukubuchou sometime ne?

Room/Suite mates, let's party? It's REALLY too damn quiet here. I can hear my brain dying. I'll even offer my trademark dark chocolate~

Kohahahaha-chan & Yuuji-sama, Hare Hare Yukai dance soon? I've got the skirts and hair styles ready (= Kiss & make out now! I miss you two!

Oh my dear honeybunches, I'm sorry, your Ouji-sama has been oh-so-lonely and busy D= Send me your love? Kajitoto has been looking a little worn for wear, anyone has ideas on duplication? Though I much prefer the original, but just in case, beggars can't be choosers no? And lotsa thanks for everyone watching my drama, the ratings have hit phenomenal high and I know it's because you love me this much. Thank god (=

I saw him the other day. Gaunt, pale and completely un-Hisa-ish. I couldn't stay away but I should, he's attached anyway. Speaking of which, I met his boyfriend the other day too, his way of loving Hisa is perfect. I refuse to be the antagonist here. No fucking way. At least, I've still got Kajitoto.

Oh Sa Ka?

Sat, 05 Apr 2008 10:10:23 GMT

So my beloved, your lonely ouji-sama (did you catch my debut?) is now in Osaka. Feel free to send your hand made goodies of love (I appreciate even the frilly maid costume) I'll miss y'all everyday~

So I went to my farewell last night. ~~The mindless drinking, senseless kissing and bad dancing.~~ Made the grand entrance as usual and had soooo much fun, you people spoil me! The music was great and the company even better ;) I’m not going to spill the details because it’s too… you know~ Use your imagination *winks* Don't worry my loves, I kept myself for y'all ;D Oh and Kajitoto says HI all around! He misses y'all almost as much as he loves me~ You know him~

Oh and of course I made it into Tenipuri University. Nishi seems a little.... too tame for my liking but oh well, HELLO Y'ALL!

Koko crunch, I got your voice message~ Awwwwwwww you missed me so much that you're seeing me around? X3

And KONJIKI Kohahahahahahahaha! You never told me that you're in Minami! You skank! Heh heh~

So I'm off to meet Simon - my Theatre Professor, he sounded really excited to see me. But of course~ Everyone is~ Jya!

[ooc - kajitoto is this accessory that Hanamura gave him when he graduated, it's the one on her mobile phone featuring chibi Kajimoto and the first part of the entry is for his readers, he's a professional blogger-struggling artiste!]